To See What I Can Find

Had a Jung moment last night. Heading to the library tomorrow to see what I can find.

Meant To Be All About

Have been thinking a lot about discussions on Monday night at YAAD class at the cottage. Renata organised a wonderful guest speaker, John Bell, who has been studying tarot and Kabbalah for something in the vicinity of 40 years. It was good to have his take on both subjects but the best part were the things we all talked about.

Two things I am thinking about in particular are the collective unconscious and the age of Aquarius. I have my own leymans thoughts on the collective unconscious and have a few thoughts related to physic ability, divination, past life experiences etc that I haven't really thought though so it was interesting to talk about these as a group. I have also been feeling that the Kabbalah will play a role of a certain level of importance in my learning but more in an indirect way. Having the two rbought together in this way has seemed to really strike a chord with me and I am looking forward to exploring this further.

The age of Aquarius is something that we didn't really discuss at length but it did come up but the part that I have been reflecting on was a description of Aquarians as being dividers. This was not really said in a negative way, but more as a way to highlight the different focus of the individual-orientated Piscean to the globally-orientated Aquarian. I'm not quite sure what to make of this but it is something that I really want to spend some more time exploring. It also has personal resonance for me as an Aquarian and I feel there is something there about recent events with my younger sister who is a Pisces (and who rang me on Sunday night and we seem to have resolved things somehow). I don't believe that the events themselves are significant but I do think that they are important in terms of getting my attention so I can gain greater understanding of the lesson I seem to be being offered.

There's some pretty major things happening within me at the moment and I don't really understand and am struggling how to work with them and still live in the normal, mundane and necessary world. I am buzzing with excitment right now and so aware of the importance of sleep for my mental processing. So many conflicts to work though. Surely this is not what it's meant to be all about.

Inspiring Energy

Had a very wonderful experience at church on Sunday with music. Our musical guest was leading and I was excited from the moment I read the set list she sent through on Saturday. Five songs, which is not too unusual although four is more typical. Nothing amazing and one of the songs I'm not all that fond of but it fit in well.

Rehearsal before church was fairly normal, we started late and were a little pushed for time to practice all of the songs but all ok. There were quite a few new faces in the congregation, but we are still only little, perhaps 40 or so people including kids.

I love it when our musical guest leads, she has a beautiful voice and really interacts well. There were a few hiccups with the song words as one of the kids was in charge of that and probably needed a little more guidance but from the start everyone just seemed really present. I didn't have a foldback speaker so couldn't hear the full sound we were making but it was one of the few times I have been able to hear the singing from the congregation; everyone was just really into it. We did three fairly up beat songs to start and then there were announcements and the kids were released to happy land whereas they usually stay for all of the songs, which I think is a bit too long. The next two songs were slower, more powerful songs and it was so moving to feel the energy in the room. At one point I looked out and absolutely everyone had their eyes closed and were all singing, most with faces and hands upturned. I became a little overwhelmed a couple of times and found it difficult to keep singing!

After the service, everyone seemed to still be buzzing and we actually had a few compliments, which is probably more because of the new people but it was so nice as some weeks it just seems like we are going through the motions and it is rare for people to give feedback. Also, the pastor has a bit of a bugbear about people not looking at church as a thing to get something out of but rather a thing to make a contribution to, which is fine to a point but he seems to put it in too black and white terms and his examples include not thinking about what you do and don't like but for me that is fine as long as there is a balance and it is a two way street. Anyway, not wanting to go on about that but just wanting to say that the music was fantastic and it was awesome to feel that beautiful and inspiring energy.