I Know

Such a balanced day today
so different
from so many
of the days recently.

Everything has seemed
like it is swinging
so far
from one extreme
to the other
but the highs
are not so high
while the lows
have still been
so low.

But today
everything feels different.

I am reacting differently.

I am focusing differently.

I am planning differently.

I just feel different
and it is the kind of different
that I am happy to feel.

There are so many questions
within myself
and of those questions
there are a lot
that I know the answers to
that I can see the lines
where they are drawn
where they lead
and I know what it means
and what has to be done.

Why, then
do I not do
what I know?