Thursday, May 28, 2009

Packing, packing, packing.

So much to do, but I quite like packing. I like being organised and I feel that this trip is pretty organised. It doesn't worry me that a lot of things are a little 'last minute' - that actually feels quite liberating. We had a rough plan, start and end dates, and have made everything else fit into place.

Pets => check!

House sitting => check!

Accommodation => check!

Money => check!

Food => check!

Drinks => check!

First Aid Kit => check!

Cameras => check!

Guitars => check!

Fun stuff => check!

Clothes => almost! Minor detail, hey?

Have done washing so return to school for the kids will be all good. Have great bargains on accommodation (some booked last night, some booked today) with three bedrooms and loads of facilities so really looking forward to that as well. Theme parks, lots and lots of driving in Thea, activity and living life.

I know, I sound like I'm rubbing it in, but this is literally our first holiday since our honeymoon more than ten years ago. Being self-employed, The Starchild doesn't get paid if he doesn't work so the only time he has had off work is when I've created human life, and then only until I came home from hospital - c-sections to recover from and all! We're better at weekends away but actual holidays, well that's another kettle of fish altogether. THAT is why I am so excited nabout tomorrow!

Not sure about internet access while we're away so if you don't hear from me for a while you'll know why.

Blessings to all!


My step-Dad is doing better and his pain is greatly reduced. They now believe it is gall stones and are going to perform an endoscopy tomorrow.

Thanks for the well-wishes and healing thoughts ♥

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Healing Request

My step-Dad has been having a rough trot with his health and I am thinking of him and my Mum at this time. He had a triple heart by-pass more than 10 years ago so has had to slow things down a lot since then but his heart has otherwise been travelling quite well. Giving up smoking and, for the most part, drinking as well, has done him wonders, but he is a stubborn old bastard and pushes himself too hard sometimes. He retired on medical grounds a couple of years ago but works just as hard around the house and doing the shopping and what not, until a recent problem with his back.

He had one operation on it about six months ago and that went ok. I don't know the details of the operation but I know there were some bone fragments that had to be removed. The pain he was experiencing before that improved slightly but last Tuesday he had to have another similar operation on the other side of his back, but without bone fragments to remove this time. The expected confinement period was 2 to 5 days and he was released after 3, so that was good.

Yesterday, he started to get pain across his stomach below his ribs and was admitted to hospital again. They initially thought it was something to do with his heart but finally ruled that out this afternoon and have organised for "stomach people", as my mum puts it, to see him in the morning. Fancy concluding that stomach pain would need specialist stomach people to look at it, hey? Go figure.

He is in a lot of pain and is only getting about 20 minutes relief from the morphine they are giving him. He is grumpy and short tempered and complaining about everything, but I guess my Mum is used to that, having raised three kids and having had to put up with two husbands as well.

My step-Dad and I haven't always gotten along. In fact, we didn't talk for about 2 years, 18months or so of which was living under the same roof. Yes, I can hold a grudge when I want to, but I do believe that some things can warrant it.

All that aside, it's hard being so far away from my mum and not being able to be there for either of them. It also reminds me of other problems in my family and in the past that I have had to accept, even though the idealistic Wendy still believes deep down that she can change the world.

So, tonight I'm sending prayers of wisdom to the doctors, strength to my mother, and peace, healing and comfort to my step-Dad. If anyone has a moment, I would truly appreciate it if you could also take 5 seconds to reflect on these things if you feel moved to do so.

Blessed be.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Dreams of Walking and of Snakes

Last night I dreamed that I met up with an old friend from school. He and I weren't particularly close friends so I have no idea why we met in my dreams but that's just the way dreams are, I guess.

I can't remember how we met up but I had driven somewhere and then met him somewhere else so we had to get back to my car several suburbs away. We walked through all sorts of terrain, including a gold course, a creek, an old dilapidated house, a tunnel under a road and all sorts of other places. We even caught a bus at one stage but mostly it was just walking, and we talked all the way.

The conversation seemed so natural at the time and it had a really familiar feel, but I can't remember much of what we talked about. One thing I remember was him saying that he and his wife had separated but he is on facebook in real life and adds lovely photos of his wife and kids regularly. When I asked him about this in the dream he said sort of giggled and try to say that it was to annoy his wife but then said that it was because he didn't want to believe they had separated.

A little while later we got to his house and he suggested we could take his car to get back to my car. We went through the house thinking it was empty but then realised that his kids were in bed and that his wife would therefore be there as well so we left. Somewhere in the dream that I think was in this part I went into a bedroom and there was one of the mum's from school in bed. She didn't seem surprised or worried that I was there, she was just sleepy. I looked around and noticed that the house was really big (she has a small house in real life and has lamented about this many times) but it was a mess, like she had what she wanted but had given up on looking after it. I said something like this to her and she just said that she knew and rolled over to go back to sleep.

My school friend and I then went out the back and got into his car, which was some amazingly expensive jeep thing that looked like the cockpit of a space craft. It had several monitors to drive it with but it seemed to be driving itself. I remember my friend was laughing good naturedly at my incredulity. We drove for a bit but were standing up inside as we went but then I decided that it was too weird so I got out and kept walking.

My friend was walking with me again and the things that we had to go through were getting harder and harder. There was one part that was like a mini jungle and he had to climb over a bit of a rock face holding onto vines and tree roots and ended up falling into the water. I remember thinking that he was so much taller and more athletic than me so I was surprised that I managed to get past ok but when I looked down there were two smallish, thin brown/green snakes curled around my ankle. I shook them off almost absently but then my friend noticed that they were chasing me and they wrapped around my foot again.

I watched as one of them grabbed my toe in it's mouth but I still wasn't worried as it looked like it was only gumming it to hold on, not actually biting me. My friend was more worried so I tried to pick up the snakes to get them off and one bit my finger and took a chunk of skin out, but it wasn't very deep and again, I thought it was only to try to hold on. I did start to worry then though so I flung both of the snakes back into the jungle and ran off. I started to think about whether I had any poison in me and even though I felt fine I stopped my friend with great urgency and told him as much as I could remember about what the snakes looked like in case I passed out and he had to tell the doctors so they could give me the right anti-venom.

And that was the end of the dream.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Back To Normal Tomorrow

I was checking out people's auras at church today, it was really cool. It wasn't intentional, I just started noticing them, which has only happened a few times in the past. My logical mind looks for patterns - and ask questions, as always. Why can I see them sometimes and not other times? I know that certain background colours make them easier to see but how come I might not see them one minute, then will see them for a while and then not see them again on the same person against the same background?

Each time I have see them it has just been like a colourless glow around the person but today after a while I was getting like "reminders" of colours, no actually colour hues in what I was seeing but some made me think of certain colours. This wasn't for everyone, just some people and only some of the time.

Today showed the most variety in the shapes and sizes of the auras with different people though and that was exciting. The pastor was giving his sermon and it was his that I noticed first. His was fairly big, but thin, and seemed bigger around the back of his head so he had a larger area that stuck out as he moved and turned while he was talking (he's a pretty animated speaker and he walks around a fair bit). There were a few times when I saw an aura-like glow that was separate from his aura that floated just above and behind his head as well but about a foot or so away. This also followed him around as he moved but it came and went and wasn't there for very long. A couple of times there were smaller, more defined glows further away but they didn't seem to be part of his energy.

One lady had a very small aura but it had a very clear line at the edge of it, like she was being limited or restricted or confined in some way. One couple we sitting very close together and I know them to have a very close relationship so I was interested in seeing if I could see if and how their auras would interact but this didn't seem to happen, it was like there was less of an aura where I would have expected some sort of merging, but the size and look/feel they emanated was very similar. Another guy had a large, thin aura, a bit like the pastors, but a little bit bigger and also a little thinner. The kids were out doing the kids activities so I didn't get to see any of theirs, which I would have really liked to as when I have seen them on kids before they have looked particularly shiny and it would have been really interesting to compare.

The whole thing lasted only a few minutes and I'm sitting here now wondering why I stopped seeing them. I don't remember them going away, I just stopped noticing, which seems really weird now as they were lovely and I would have thought I would have keep trying to see them as long as I could. Oh well, I'm sure I will see them again.

There's still lots of energy around me, the stuff that has been affecting my mood over the last few days (or is it the other way round?) but it seems better, still active, but not freaking me out so much.

In other church news, Kman came to rehearsal today playing guitar and liked it so much he asked if he could stay on during the service. He made me so proud, even though he was disappointed he wasn't amped up. We had music practice after the service and he got plugged in then, which he was stoked about.

In other, other church news, in a few weeks time there will only be one of the music leaders and myself around from the whole worship team, so I've offered to play guitar then. It will be one lady on keyboard and vocals and me on guitar, although I won't be able to do much with vocals cause it still throws out my strumming pretty badly. The other good thing about that is that I will be able to choose the songs, even though it will be pretty much by default because we will be limited by the ones I can play ☺ Kman might play as well, but I'm not sure as he will need to practice the timing of his chord changes as he is still learning but isn't that interested in the theory side of things.

The only other different thing about today is that I haven't had any water to drink. I've been drinking around three litres each day for the last week and my normal two litres other times but for some reason I haven't had any today. I drank a lot of green tea but the lack of water makes me feel insatiably thirsty at this end of the day. Will have to get back to normal tomorrow.