Saturday, December 20, 2008

The Twelve Days of Litha

I thought I'd try my hand at a little adaptation so we could have a "Christmas" song for the southern hemisphere pagans. I searched the net and couldn't find anything similar but I'm sure something like it has been done somewhere along the lines. So, here it is: The Twelve Days of Litha...

On the first day of Litha the Goddess gave to me,
~ The longest day of the year.

On the second day of Litha the Goddess gave to me,
~ Two deities,
~ And the longest day of the year.

On the third day of Litha the Goddess gave to me,
~ The Threefold law,
~ Two deities,
~ And the longest day of the year.

On the forth day of Litha the Goddess gave to me,
~ Four elements,
~ The Threefold law,
~ Two deities,
~ And the longest day of the year.

On the fifth day of Litha the Goddess gave to me,
~ A five pointed star,
~ Four elements,
~ The Threefold law,
~ Two deities,
~ And the longest day of the year.

On the sixth day of Litha the Goddess gave to me,
~ Six pendulums,
~ A five pointed star,
~ Four elements,
~ The Threefold law,
~ Two deities,
~ And the longest day of the year.

On the seventh day of Litha the Goddess gave to me,
~ Seven major chakras,
~ Six pendulums,
~ A five pointed star,
~ Four elements,
~ The Threefold law,
~ Two deities,
~ And the longest day of the year.

On the eighth day of Litha the Goddess gave to me,
~ Eight solar sabbats,
~ Seven major chakras,
~ Six pendulums,
~ A five pointed star,
~ Four elements,
~ The Threefold law,
~ Two deities,
~ And the longest day of the year.

On the ninth day of Litha the Goddess gave to me,
~ Nine fairies dancing,
~ Eight solar sabbats,
~ Seven major chakras,
~ Six pendulums,
~ A five pointed star,
~ Four elements,
~ The Threefold law,
~ Two deities,
~ And the longest day of the year.

On the tenth day of Litha the Goddess gave to me,
~ Ten divinations,
~ Nine fairies dancing,
~ Eight solar sabbats,
~ Seven major chakras,
~ Six pendulums,
~ A five pointed star,
~ Four elements,
~ The Threefold law,
~ Two deities,
~ And the longest day of the year.

On the eleventh day of Litha the Goddess gave to me,
~ Eleven magic herbs,
~ Ten divinations,
~ Nine fairies dancing,
~ Eight solar sabbats,
~ Seven major chakras,
~ Six pendulums,
~ A five pointed star,
~ Four elements,
~ The Threefold law,
~ Two deities,
~ And the longest day of the year.

On the twelfth day of Litha the Goddess gave to me
~ Twelve lighted candles,
~ Eleven magic herbs,
~ Ten divinations,
~ Nine fairies dancing,
~ Eight solar sabbats,
~ Seven major chakras,
~ Six pendulums,
~ A five pointed star,
~ Four elements,
~ The Threefold law,
~ Two deities,
~ And the longest day of the year.

To Sleep: Perchance To Dream

Very weird four-part dream, last night. Details are fading already but will try to capture what I can here.

I went to an office which was meant to be the last place I didn't get the job at but the location and everything physically about it was different. I had some papers for the ladies there and there was a new employee at the front desk. I was trying to work out if she was the one that got the job over me. She looked professional from a far but as I got closer to her and watched how she was dealing with people coming in and out (there were some other interviews for a junior position being held) she looked like she was overwhelmed. When I got to her I told her I had papers to drop off and she was really lovely, but clearly not coping. I was trying to delicately find out what her position was to see if it was the one that I had applied for but she didn't even know what her job title was. I felt that perhaps I had missed out on the job because they couldn't afford the money I was asking and that was ok. I also had the hope that they would end up ringing me back to make me an offer as things weren't working out.

When I left, I saw a girl I used to work with, who, for the purpose of this blog, will be referred to as Poison Ivy. She was in the car park with about four or so of her friends, they were laughing and having fun as girls of their age should. She saw me but looked away quickly, but I said Hi. She said something nasty and then one of her friends started to abuse me. I actually felt a bit worried so I got into the car and was trying to lock the doors but the central locking button was weird and then I realised that I was in The Starchild's truck. I remember thinking that this person didn't even know me and from what she was saying she had been told all sorts of things that never happened. I said something to her along those lines and she said that she sticks up for her friends no matter what. So, I just wished them both well and drove off.

On to part three of the dream. I was driving away in the truck and was on a fairly busy road. It was early evening so it had just gotten dark and there was a young child on a bike riding on the road with his father walking next to him. I slowed right down but I couldn't understand why they would be on the road. I was keeping a distance and trying to position the truck so no one else could hit them accidentally. I gave a light beep of the horn and both the man and the child saw the truck but they kept riding on the road and swerving over the lane as little kids do when they're learning to ride. I've been really trying to work on my frustration lately with people driving ridiculously slow on the roads so perhaps this is where this part of the dream came from. Then in the dream the father started to abuse me. I yelled something back about what sort of an idiot takes a small child riding on such a busy road and that he was lucky that I was such a careful driver as it was a recipe for disaster. I remember thinking the rant I would tell The Starchild about it when I got home but then I thought that I wouldn't bother as he wouldn't be interested because he sees stupid things like this on the road every day.

In the last part of the dream I stopped off at a supermarket on the way home and Poison Ivy was there as well as her bff at the time I knew her, Ms Frost. The last time I heard directly from Ms Frost, she was really nice to me and relaxed and not defensive as Poison Ivy tends to make people feel but in the dream she was trying to be a smart ass bitch. Then one of the other lovely girls I also worked with at this time came up and was also ignoring me. This is so out of character for this girl in particular and I have seen her a few times since and she has always been so lovely, even giving me presents for the kids. But in the dream she had been also catching up with Poison Ivy and had been, well, poisoned as well. But I just started talking and being myself and then this girl and Ms Frost also started to remember what I was really like rather than the poison crap they had been listening to from Poison Ivy. Soon, we were all chatting and laughing and having fun but Poison Ivy was just seething with anger. She ended up saying something nasty to me and I just said something about her actively engulfing her life with poisonous lies and what it was making her.

And that's all I remember now.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

I Just Don't Want To Go To Bed

I don't want to go to sleep and I don't know why. There is nothing much on my mind and there is nothing that I particularly want to do. I just don't want to go to bed. I'm not feeling anxious or worried or anything. There's nothing on TV and no other stimulus keeping me from bed. No alcohol, or rather, this is alcohol in the house and I had two drinks earlier in the evening but I don't feel like drinking. I'm not hungry, in fact, I had an angry whopper from Hungry Jacks (coz their ad worked and I really wanted to buy one) at about 1pm and didn't have anything else to eat since. I ended up making a toasted sandwich about 10.15pm for no real reason other than because I could. I still feel fine but I'm just avoiding going to bed. There is something to unlock here and I wish I knew what it was.

I didn't have quite enough sleep last night but I'm feeling ok still. I was in a bit of a silly mood this morning, which is good and reminds me of someone, maybe. I was a little creative last night and I'd like to revisit but tomorrow will be good enough for that. The Plan is not in full swing but I'm getting better and better at it each day. Things are generally positive and I'm feeling good. I just don't want to go to bed.

Who's Winning?

Where has the time gone?

Cute email from my would-be witch niece last night that I spent, oh, about an hour replying to - gee I can waffle on sometimes.

Did some Xmas shopping today. Still have so many people to buy for. Gee I wish I'd said nicer things about KRudd, then maybe he would have given us some money as well.

Appointment with the accountant to look at setting The Starchild up as a business. Keep telling myself that not only will this be a viable option, it will also be prosperous and will allow for growth in this area.

Have a christening in Sydney on Saturday, then visiting on Sunday. The bear is helping out with gifts as well - yay! I'll have to take back all of those mean and uncharitable things I said about her now.

Blister in the San rang yesterday - good chat with general consensus that glitter can solve all of the worlds problems.

It's been outrageously hot but a huge wind has just blown in with some rain that dried up as soon as it hit the ground because the ground was so hot. I wonder what the BOM and also Ken Ring have to say about this.

End of year party at The Cottage last night - very nice with lots of people there. I wonder what next year will bring on this front. I'm in two minds about where I want all this to go. I'm really happy to have kept up with the YAAD stuff and have taken on board the warnings of increased work next year. Obviously the universe thinks that this sort of stuff should be my focus, rather than getting a job.

Stayed up late again last night and got a bit of a sleep in this morning, which was wonderful. Kman is staying at the outlaws tonight and is now booked into camp in January. Car rego is due today and has actually been paid - yippie. Had to get two types and miscellaneous bulbs etc and for some reason the online payment didn't process but I did it over the phone and the best thing of all is that this years rego sticker is purple and I will have it on for the whole 12 months.

That's about all of the exciting news for now.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Ye, Gods!

I'm so drunk I can barely type and I'm fearful of the drivel that I may come out with at the moment.

Odin arrived, as did queen muck. The smiley monster was adorable in a loud an annoying way but they seemed quite taken with Talisman - what worth do humans have over dogs, eh? I found myself preparing in the back of my mind for a big showdown as I am self-vowed to never again play the stupid games that have been going on for 20 odd years but I am still a person who is increasingly enjoying living in the moment for the joys of different personalities and I was surprised that it was the latter that I found more relevant to the interactions of today. I was blunt and did the whole shoot from the hip thing that I so excel at - at the hour and a half mark there were preparations to leave until I blurted out "you've got be be kidding, you haven't even been here for two hours and I haven't seen you for years". Surprisingly there seemed to be an increase in comfort and enjoyment from queen muck at that point on. No, seriously, she seemed to start to relax and have fun after admitting that she only wanted to leave so she could have a 15 minute power nap before they went out for dinner. But I enjoyed it and I am so glad to see Odin. I love him so much and see my true self in him more than when looking in the mirror. If only we each had the balls to be who we are.

On a different (yet maybe strangely similar) note, I have a plan. I don't know that it is very definitive and I don't think it will start tomorrow as theoretically it means that my day begins at 6am with a workout and I just can't see that happening after all of have partaken in this afternoon and evening, but it is a plan never the less. And I will go so far as to Title Case it so is it now The Plan. And I believe in The Plan. And it is good to know The Plan and be instrumental in The Plan. I'm over my little hissy fit - never too old for one of those - and not feeling angry anymore. The Plan has given me hope and it is that eternal optimist that is part of my core that is fighting it's way back to the surface. And I love it. The possibilities of The Plan. It's all good I'm sure.

We have almost competed the trampoline area in the back yard. The Starchild is such a hard worker but I did my limited yet fair share as well today. I'm sure I will be suffering physically over the next day or so as a result but it felt so good to be part of the end result.

The impossible princess was sick last night and Kman and I both felt pretty off-colour today with him yakking and me cleaning into the wee small hours this evening. I hope the rest of the night is better as I'm in no fit state to clean, even if that was something I felt moved to do.

I liked the automatic writing thing so did a quick auto-pilot trip now:

Would like to start by saying that to take off the veil of humanity, one has to take of the veil off life. That we are all here because we have chosen to be and even though that is not what I usually think it is never the less true.

It will be way cool when I can decipher this crap, don't you think?

For now, I am and I am and I am and I am. Aren't you?
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