Monsters of the world

Time moves on
things change
blah, blah, blah...

The discord within
is constant
but not as chaotic
and there is a sense of peace
in that familiarity.

So many friends
going through so many problems
but at least I feel
like the crashing spiral of events
has finally stopped
and while it hasn't come to a complete rest
and we still can't even
begin to assess
the full extent of the damage
there are still things that can be done.

Denial is such a wicked friend
but I am working on my footing
and am starting to stand a respectful distance
and am actually working on
some of the things that can be done.

And part of me
is still screaming inside
to just walk away from it all.

To start again.

Where we can focus on
building our dreams
rather than allowing our dreams
to be tossed to the wind
and eaten by the monsters of the world.

Me

Why is everything so fucking hard?

Everywhere I look
I am overwhelmed
by what seems to be
expected of me
but which I fail
to interact with
in way that seems to be the design
of the human race
in the infinity of the universe.

Words can't describe
how much I hate
this life
this world
just how much hate
and loathing
is inside me.