Friday, May 22, 2009

Be Careful What We Wish For

For the last three days I have tried to nap but keep getting woken up by the phone or the doorbell or just waking for no reason. I have to think that this is deliberate.

I am also thinking about metaphors linking life with bikes, reminding the rider that they need to keep moving in order to maintain balance and therefore avoid falling off but also in order to make any progress. I am wondering if I am on a bicycle or an exercise bike.

The wind outside is crazy and as an air sign it is really setting my mind to overdrive.

The glimpses are dominating my night times and I am sometimes very scared. I don't understand why but there are definite feelings of malice around me that I didn't invite. I wanted to see more and am reminded that we should be careful what we wish for.


Lisa said...

do we need to chat- have coffee ?

Natalie said...

I left you a large comment on your large post.xx♥

Wendy said...

Thanks, Lisa, but even if I don't understand everything I am thinking and feeling at the minute, I do understand that this is just part of who I am and something that I have to run with in order to get through and learn from. Expressing stuff is good, so there's nothing to really worry about but if I'm not over it in a few days then I'll give you a call.

Thanks, Nat. Got it and replied - you're crazier than I thought to have waded through the whole thing! Much love to you ♥

Debbi said...

Hrm. Wendy, I don't know what it is that's bothering you, but I hope that soon the proverbial wind settles in your life. :) Riding a bike against the wind is tough, maybe turn the other way and let the wind HELP your travels?