I've been dazed and confused
for so long it's not true.
Once passionate
my whole being
seems to have slowly but surely
faded into a faceless stream of placidity.
Yet I have noticed
some things
have really pushed my buttons recently.
Not that I am outwardly angry.
It's like I am having these feelings
but it has been so long since I felt them
that I no longer remember
what to do with them
so they whirl around inside me
and bounce off the walls
trying to get me to react.
But I don't.
Then
through this tumultuous calm
I see the point.
A realisation
opened to me
by the emotions
that are felt
without the clouding
of the physical
and I see
that it is a clue.
Something to point me
to drive me
to tell me
what I can
and should
be doing.
But do I have the energy?
Do I have the motivation?
Do I have the time?
In all honesty
I truly believe
that I do have all of these
if I only choose to find them
but whether or not I will do this
remains to be seen.
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Besides the noble art of getting things done, there is the noble art of leaving things undone. The wisdom of life consists in the elimination of non-essentials.
~Lin Yutang
Nicely quoted, Jac. Do you wonder if your friend Lin may have been referring to facebook?
Very possible ;)
Your post has struck a cord inside me. It felt like you put in words something vague inside me, something that is in my mind for so long. The post i wrote today although so much different than yours seems now to me a different angle of a similar situation. I am in search for balance in so many levels. I begun a weekly theme to keep me motivated, so i can find energy, to make the time..for me.(Forgive the horrible quote!)
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