This Day

Today has been
one of the worst days
for a while
particularly so
for the absence of any reason
for it to be such.

Panic.
Anxiety.
Overwhelm.

Physical symptoms
the unwelcome companion
to the rest of the shit
I just happen to be going through.

Tears.

Where are they?

Now
when I feel like crying
the tears
no longer fall
so I don't even get
the benefits
from their bitter sweet cleansing.

Tired.

Awake.

Aching.

Yet somehow
keeping on top
of the day
and therefore
not loosing too much ground
to be recovered
once I emerge
on the other side
of this day.